So many, worries, opinions and feelings have been flying around my head recently, nothing bad just things I want to discuss. I want to express them on here, as the bottom line is I want to be honest with you guys…
Now my blog is starting to take off and I am receiving more of an audience (which I am so grateful for) I am starting to question how I am coming across. It’s so easy to get carried away with trying so hard to promote and build yourself up that you forget what you are trying to show to people. The main reason I wanted to write this particular post is because I like to be real and honest. And it had started to feel as though I wasn’t showing you who I REALLY AM.
I haven’t been ‘lying this whole time’, I just want to adjust the way I am presenting myself on Instagram, Twitter and my blog. One of the best things about social media is that you can create whatever persona for yourself you wish, but you can also fake a lot of things. Which I think is such a powerful, but manipulative tool (echoed in the media) and I think this is something that we should all consider when we are looking at our idols. Personally I have tried to be honest with you all in a way that will help me to grow my blog, which is think is totally fine, I am sure even some of the big bloggers do this. But there are some who say no to all of that and share who they really are. This, I think is me. After a while of playing this ‘social media game’, I saw the move of going self hosted as giving me a chance to kind of start things again.
To be brutally honest I have chosen to share and make people believe certain things about my lifestyle choices, which isn’t a bad thing necessarily. I have just come to the point where I don’t feel comfortable doing this. It is tiring to try and live up to expectations. I would just like to make sure I am showing all my readers/follwers who I really am instead of holding back on certain things because I am afraid of being judged. I want people to like me for what I like about myself, I want people to get to know me more. For example I’m not sure that all of my followers know of my age and the fact that I live at home with my little brother who’s 6 and my mum and step dad and that I go to school everyday – I barely share anything about school which is such a huge part of my everyday life. Obviously I do not want to share every tiny detail of my life as that would be even more exhausting and I am not willing to expose my family/friends. But there are some things that deserve to be shared in order for people to understand me more and to not jump to conclusions.
Therefore from now on, what you see/read will be me. I don’t want to talk to people how I wouldn’t talk to them in real life. I want to be real. Because I am real.
Thank you for reading, I would appreciate any comments and thoughts on this!
Tilly Rose X